What does it really mean to honour God?
The two words have been stuck in my mind the last few days and I’ve been thinking about it on and off since then. I want to honour Him in every part of my life, I want the blessings of God in my life and I want His presence to be a tangible fragrance everywhere I go. But how do I honour Him?
Been talking to people, myself and God a lot since I got back home. That’s probably why I lost my voice 
I’ve really enjoyed the time I’ve spent with each and everyone who matters, whether it was only a short time or not, but I think, especially in the last few days, that the time I’ve enjoyed the most is the time just before I go to bed when I’m in bed thinking over the things and conversations of the day and just trying to make the conscious effort to talk to God. I’m beginning to see with my heart that Christianity is really a relationship just like any other. It needs work. You can’t just say that you know someone and expect that someone to know you if you don’t spend quality time with each other.
And this leads me to the question: Do I know God and will He recognise me as His good and faithful child when I see Him in heaven? Sobering thought that. It’s put so clearly in the bible, for the wages of sin is death. Any sin be it big or small is sin, and if one of the commandments of God is to love Him wholeheartedly, with our entire being… Well, if we don’t is that not a sin from which we need to repent of too? God loves us, but He is also a holy and just God…
I’ve learned to love the Lord, but I think I’m also learning to fear Him too.
So, I’ve decided that I want to honour Him in every part of my life, especially in 2 areas. One is in my tithing and the other is in my relationships with people.
God has been speaking to me about tithing for awhile now, about taking it one step further and trusting Him that little bit more, so I made the decision yesterday that I would do that. That whatever passes through my hands, the firstfruits will belong to Him.
Relationships. I’ve always struggled to make my relationships with people last, especially my friendships. I’m such an awful friend because I’ve always needed the physical presence of my friends to remind myself to keep investing in the relationship. And I’ve been travelling so much in the last year or so that it’s been pretty tough to keep my friendships going. Yes I have really understanding and awesome friends because most of the time when we meet again after not seeing each other for awhile, it’s as if I never left and they are usually the ones to remind me that we need to meet up and catch up. So on one hand I have trouble maintaining these relationships, but I want to go one step further and be able to honour God in these friendships. To be sensitive to the spirit and give advice that is not just sound but Godly too…
And well, hmmm…. relationships… yep. I wanna honour God especially in this. Just had a quick chat with the mother just now during lunch and I shared with her a little of what I’ve been thinking and feeling and she gave me her two cents worth. I must admit that it wasn’t easy just taking it, not that she was scolding me or anything. I think she’s rather glad actually that I’m doing what I’m doing, but some of her thoughts aren’t exactly what I want to hear. But I’m hearing it anyway. I want to entrust this to God, because I know that He will not fail me. And I trust Him enough to listen to my mother’s thoughts on this. It’s not all that different form mine. It was really just one thing that she said. But oh well… Still chewing on that. And goodness knows, I will have more than enough time to process it.
Feeling quite encouraged so far, with everything that I’m hearing and everything that I’m reading. Finally started to really ask God about some things I never really wanted to ask before because I didn’t want to know the answer, but I’ve made my peace with that and I know that whatever the answer is for the long run, I’m ready to listen and obey.
Wanted to post about my reading last night about a deeper Christianity and discipleship, but I guess that’ll wait till later or tomorrow:)
Today’s song: You Alone Can Rescue – Matt Redman
